Can a grown man have a crush? Can a mid-life mid youth be distracted by someone who has proffered only a few words and a bit of conversation? Will he make a fool of himself? Maybe...
She works for another organisation to me, but we're working on a project together. She's twenty years younger. I can see no reason why she should pay me the slightest attention, but I am sure that she is doing just that. Her e-mails are slightly more informal than I would expect when we know so little of each other (and ostensibly I am her boss in this commission). And that would be that, but the other day I swear she kept extending our chat outside the office even though she was clearly frozen cold (God, I almost offered her my jacket!) and wanted to get in her car and even though we'd finished talking work and even though I kept providing opportunities for her to finish the conversation. I asked her if she wanted to join me at the next meeting (and she had every reason to decline), but she said i would like to come to the meeting with you. Not I would like to come to the meeting, but I would like to come to the meeting with you. And now I have her mobile number too and it wasn't hard.
So perhaps she has a crush on me?!? Hmmm....On Monday we meet again. I will assess her body language and her language and demeanour once more.
In the meantime I think about her far more than is right. In an escapist, fantasy kind of way. That feels nice. That's a nice, thrilling sensation. Been a while since I felt such emotions. Not since Peach really. So two years. Reality would be messy though. But escapism is a buzz. Probably never amount to more. Not even sure what more means in this context. An illicit kiss would probably be all the thrill I need.
Oh and she runs too. God, the thought of her in lycra is more than the old ticker can take!!!!
